Groping

I read Acts 17 for the first time ever it seemed the other day. I have been captured by this idea of groping in the dark. Acts 17:26-28 says :" And He has made from one blood every nation of men to dwell on all the face of the earth, and has determined their preappointed times and the boundaries of their dwellings, so that they should seek the Lord, in the hope that they might grope for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us; for in Him we live and move and have our being, as also some of your own poets have said ' for we are also His offspring'." Everything is the way it is for every person ever in the hope that everyone might seek the Lord, grope for Him....I love that it says "though He is not far from each one of us". As of late I've been groping, as I think all have to find something, anything in the dark and it seems just out of reach. It is when we get this fear about us, this thought process of "What ifs" that we must believe the Lord is near though we don't feel Him and certainly can't see Him just because He says He is. The Lord wants me to grope, He does not leave me hopeless or stranded in the dark but whispers "I am near" and I continue to grope until I find Him.